the sea is dying
27 Aug 2011 Leave a Comment
in all that glitters..., rebel justice
I feel like I’m writing an eulogy or something. I’m not, because the people I’m writing about are very much alive and kicking… it is what they are doing that is coming to an end.
Kristin said it so very prettily a couple of years ago. We have been like partners in crime, Crazy Fucking Bitch and Rebel Justice. The great big constants in Modern Rock; friends instead of enemies. Fraternizing, partying, touring – but most of all, making some pretty damn good music. Hand in hand, so to say. Putting Modern Rock on the map, being household names.
And now the Bitches are disbanding, too. Tomorrow they are going to climb the stage for the final time and play their swan song. I’ll be there with them. I’m dating Kristin tonight and I see that same numb-yet-anguished look in her eyes that I saw in the mirror not too long ago. I know how you feel, I want to say… but that would just cheapen it.
So I will just say this… Even though we will never hear a new CFB song or album in the future, your legacy is eternal. Your songs will be here forever.
And thank you so much for that.
an elegy for A Rebel
15 Jan 2011 Leave a Comment
in family, rebel justice
I inherited 19 674 €, some personal items and Lost Souls Stockholm from Anna Morgansson.
My friend Anna Morgansson just died. Sometimes life just isn’t what it should be…
No. No no no. FUCK no. Not Anna!
Don’t talk to me today.
I hate the fucking world. :’(
bottle of canadian whiskey gets the job done
20 Dec 2010 Leave a Comment
in rebel justice, Uncategorized
I know. We’re just a band. Just a band, some random people coming together to make some music that some other people happen to like. Many more people don’t like it. And that’s fine. We’re just a fucking band.
I shouldn’t take this so heavily. I shouldn’t keep thinking that’s a life, an era, that is ending. (two more days, two more days…)
It’ll drive me into the ground, while there is so much beauty and happiness in the world. In my world, even. Stop blowing this all up, dammit.
Anyone can make what I have built
And better now…
We’re just a fucking BAND.
I’m also drunk.
Please don’t judge me.
always with you
16 Dec 2010 Leave a Comment
in rebel justice, stephen
Please allow me a moment of complete and utter mushiness… it needs to be said.
Before I let go completely, there’s one thing I want to say to you, Stephen. This is for Jean and Torrie as well, but mostly for you, Steph.
We didn’t only share a band, but we also share blood and love and ambition and even a bit of our souls, I suppose. And I want you to know that even when I’ll completely dunk my head under in a new life, even when I move on, even when I’m half a world away…
I’m always with you.
You know that, right?
transition
15 Dec 2010 Leave a Comment
in rebel justice, symphony of agony
We released Spread Your Love, Rebel On! as a farewell present to our fans. It was released way too early and we expected it to sell like ass, but the fans have surprised us and bought it like crazy. 200K in copies, more than we ever hoped for.
I waited for the album’s first week to see what would happen, but now it’s time for us all to part ways. And it’s hard. To look each other in the eyes and admit that it’s over is probably the weirdest thing I’ll ever have to do. The tourbus is empty, the crew got its last pay. All that is left is admitting that we’re done. I keep postponing the moment… I should have just done it while I was drunk after the party or something. Parting is such sweet sorrow.
But if you hear somewhere that I grew tired of Rebel Justice and left it, those are all lies.
If all my sorrow has led me here
Then I would cry all my tears
to have this chance again
I know there’s more than this
I know there’s more than you
I think I need courage in a bottle. Who has some booze for me?
Are you sure you wish to leave Rebel Justice? You might never be able to rejoin…
–yes… :’(
